Fight or Flight :the tattoo monologues pt1

Tattoos tell a story to each person that has one. either the tattoo itself or just the whole process is something memorable with its effects there day after day never to cease. with me the ones that i own hold special meaning unlike some people( i apologize  if that's  you ) they tell important info about my life. i struggle that i had to overcome or just how people effect my living. in this series of writing i will go over my tattoos and talk about the symbolism behind them . 

one mans trial is a another mans inspiration.

Fight or Flight

see i had this girlfriend in high school ,she was my 1st love . you know the whole story your first everything , this, this and that. we met 11 grade and we were each others 1st serious relationship. and we had come to our first truly big test. and also a testament to my naive stupidity. College,i have received a scholarship to play football in Michigan, and she got into a school in North Carolina. now with my since of perfect love and trust and respect i love this girl fiercely, things were fine and great we talked on the phone ,wrote letters, i would go see her more then i would go see my own mother at any chance i got. i was with her. even before the whole process of me having to figure out if i was going to Michigan in the first place. i was sick, trying to find a way to be close to her. i figured whats so big about a scholarship and looked for other options anything to save my love. but to no avail i like relationship i had to be commented to my obligations . and through it all i had my up and downs  even still hung in there, same with football i wasn't the die hard football player as most see with my size and ability tell you the truth i never really play or watched football until the 11 grade but my ability to take instruction and my ability to take coaching and the Ford never quit attitude even when i was on the verve of it, i pushed on. it finally sank in on conversation i had with my father that what i was doing was not about now but was to have vision for later. for me to give up on myself was unacceptable, and if i don't push and just accept my defeat but i just went through the motions i would be wasting time of myself and those around me. and also the whole conversation when i talked to my girlfriend and she told me she cheated on me 3 months after we had been in school, and but that's in the book I'm writing so. when i looked at all i went through my struggle with being far from home, no family, no friends and missing my girlfriend and having to deal with football in a way i never had before. to wake up every morning and push even when i didn't want to. the losing streaks , the cheating partner and yelling coaches . i looked at the whole experience that without coming here i would have not grown and i would stayed the same. i would have been satisfied with a mediocre existence and now I'm more open to life then i ever would have thought. and i wanted to encompass all my ideals on this situation through art and simply this option to.

 Fight or Flight